Books.......

It's long time mom wrote anything here. അല്ലേ? Mom was all out of her senses, dear... Last year was very hard for me, dear Rithika....One day when you grow up old enough, I will tell you all those struggles. But for now, rithika, just understand that it was bit rough. I lost all the trust in human race, sweet heart ...Everyone I trusted failed me. And in these precarious times , you being yourself, helped me a lot. You engaged me sweetheart before my own mind demons possessed me.

          I still remember me coming home tired and exhausted physically and mentally, you will ask me to read a story..The first Malayalam fiction which hooked you to the end was 'my dear കുട്ടിച്ചാത്തൻ '. Earlier also i tried with many books. English fiction you like a lot and is so comfortable that we have finished big books. But Malayalam you are not that comfortable. So when we started the first book ' കൊച്ച് നീലണ്ടൻ ', though he naughtiness kept you hooked for a day, the enthusiasm didn't last much.Next book i tried was ' ഉണ്ണികുട്ടൻ്റെ ലോകം '. The child in the book and you were of same age. So I thought you will love it. But that also didn't entertain you. The first Malayalam book you finished was kuttichaathan. 

You as a child is very anxious about your safety. You have always told me you want to live hundred years. But in reading the book, it came into your mind that sometimes a kid can lose a parent. And you asked me mom, will you die soon. The anxiety with which you asked...i still remember that moment. I pray to god everyday to be able to be with you as long as you need me, dear ...

Thanks rithika for making me feel loved when do many people chose to break my heart, so many whom I trusted to the core of my heart. And for you child, i will share what I learnt through pain. The modern world lies a lot. I mean they are good at telling so many things..They flatter you a lot...world lives through flattery...In relationships, always be warned of this that during good times , people tell and promise a lot...the words doesn't mean anything to them...they are just words...don't trust the words...the world is full of hypocrites...when you age, you must give every relation very much time , say like years and also go long distant for a while. Only a relationship sustains few bad moments, it can be verified true...otherwise be aware of narcissists who love bombs a lot...Give all relations including friendship time to prove its worth...and the first sight of red flags, just muster the courage to put stern boundary somehow...or to leave as is required...

In every relationship, you must search whether you are getting respected. By respect, what do you mean? We always hear we must respect elders. it's not so. Respect is needed in all the relations. It means simply that, if you care for a person, atleast to keep their heart, we listen to them...it's not  that we must listen to things even if it's wrong. If wrong we should'nt do it. But if right, or if it doesn't harm you to just listen and nod, please do it sweetheart because that one gesture would make someone's day...it just shows that we care for that person. If you are not getting the respect back, it might be good for you to leave so as to save the heart ache in future...love you dearest.